Saturday, February 26, 2011

Ups and Downs of Life

Well, if I'm going to be honest, life has really been difficult the last few days. I am still struggling with the diagnosis of my friend Amy, and I have been frustrated that I'm still so sore and weak from this surgery. I know, I know it has only been two weeks, but I'm NOT used to being laid up. I am getting better and stronger, but if it were up to me, I'd be somewhere hiking a mountain or running a race. Luckily though, I had a good friend from high school fly in this weekend from Colorado because she knew I was having a hard time. It has been great to catch up and have the support of all of these wonderful people. She came to just sit on the couch and hang out, and drive me to my niece's 3rd birthday party at the zoo! I am so thankful I have friends like her in my life! She has made me smile all weekend, despite what has been happening.

I have had a few outings, short and sweet, which have really helped me feel normal, but I know this coming week will be very difficult. I have all of my tests Monday at KU Med, then Amy has her surgery to remove what she has named her "tumzilla" (The 8 cm tumor in her brain) on Tuesday, and then I find out my treatment regiment on Thursday. I wrote an e-mail to a friend of mine and in it I came up with this.... "I believe in the ups and the downs of life and however low you end up going down is how far you'll end up going up. So girl, expect me to fly in the next few years! But, as of now, my heart is filled with sorrow and worry for Amy and the need for me to have to concentrate on me getting better in the mean time."

I thought I'd just write an honest, somewhat raw blog. I really don't know who reads this, but it is therapeutic for me to just write. I'm just hoping the next blog will be filled with positivity!

Below is something else that can only make me smile. My beautiful nieces, whom I love with all of my heart, after just blowing out Zooey's birthday candles! Happy Birthday my little friend... (who wanted a baseball cake:)

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3 comments:

  1. Sarah FainFebruary 27, 2011 at 4:44 PM

    Hey Heather-- Sarah Fain here. Just talked to the mother of those adorable nieces of yours, and I just wanted to say I'm thinking about you and sending all kinds of positive energy and thoughts your way. For both you and Amy. XO, Sarah

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  2. AnonymousMarch 1, 2011 at 1:47 PM

    It is ABOUT time you opened up your blog for comments!! Takes a lot of valuable time to get a Google account, sign up as a blog follower, blah blah!!!

    Now, here's what I think...I think your new boobs look fabulous!!! I hope Amys head can look half as good after they cut out Tumzilla as your boobs do after saying goodbye to your yet unnamed tumor. Kathy (or Kitty...your choice)

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  3. The FormanatorMarch 1, 2011 at 5:19 PM

    Hi Heather! Something made me look at your facebook and reading this about you, and your new boobs, and Amy! WOW!! My niece has just been diagnosed with stage 2 breast cancer; did genetic testing last week to find out what to do - she's 24!

    I read through your blog! LOVE your voice; I can hear it in your words. You and Amy are in our prayers! I'll keep checking in :-) If I can be any help, please don't hesitate to call! Suzanne

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